I’d been feeling like I had too much ‘creating’ going on (oh what a thing to suffer from, you may say, but it was worse than having creative block) or rather too much going on in general.
I was feeling very overwhelmed and stuck in a place where I didn’t know what to do first.
I had all the time, finally, to be able to write and draw.
I had piles of writing to do, picture I wanted to create, books to read, articles to look at, til the creativity was coming out of my ears but I had no concentration, I couldn’t decide what I wanted to do fist, or what I ‘should’ do first, so I couldn’t settle to anything without thinking ‘Oh I ‘should’ go and do….’
I pretended this was really ‘procrastinating’, cos that’s part of the creative process. But my procrastinating was becoming more about wandering off topic altogether.
I’d find other ‘more important’ things to do, housework things, like wiping windowsills or dusting fans hoping that this would lead me to realise that I really needed to be doing was writing or painting.
I felt completely stuck in this pattern.
Then I came across (read; the world synchronised for this to happen, I know) Kama Frankling and her Life/Business Coaching Sessions (add link).
She helped me a lot- we finetuned what I really wanted and needed to be doing , and then showed me how I could achieve these by culling, prioritising and reorganising, and then added a bit of structure and a schedule.
These ideas seemed totally at odds with my free flowing, no ‘time frame’ creativity. But I could see I needed something, and the ‘order’ the creativity needed to be able to happen .
The pressure and stress of the ‘Should’s’ that I had been feeling began to fade, and gradually I have been able to return to writing and painting again.
This blog post is my first for ages, and my ‘Moonscape’ pastel the first picture for a long while that I’ve really enjoyed creating. I can now look at the stories, articles and poems which need redrafting and editing.
Have you felt the overload, the pressure of the ‘Should’s’ before, how did you finetune the picture??